Time check: 815a.m
woke up super early to clear my mind

I feel bad about what happened
About not answering your called when im out
Not text-ing you when im with family
I just assume you would know
But i was wrong

I love you more than anything

But sometimes i feel oh so lost
keeping my feeling a secret from you
you seem to be busy when school start
i understand
it happened to me when im having school too

everything seem to be alrights
so why am i acting like this?

honestly i got jealous over your band
like how you got jealous by my soccer
Karma? i guess
the things you do for your band
the extra mile you got to travel
the hour you spent with them after that
i try to keep myself occupied by going out with friend
Upset? pretty much

i may sound like a little girl
but thats who i am

Well i just got to bare with it
there's noting you could do for now
its all good

Mood swing? Totally

My panda grew a year older
ugly?
I think so. boy or girl? hmmmm

Its funny how guys lie about their life
Lie about who they with
Lie about where they are
Lie just to get what they want
selfish? TOTALLY

How they miss out the biggest details when they with others
I feel bad for their GF

But its also funny how guys willing to do anything
for the girl they love
& how unappreciative that girl could be
He still love her

Well i was talking to Yan when he told me about his GF
i was like so reluctant to hear, im sorry
but i got my own problem right now. mental problem.

Well all i could say is, talk to her
If she dont speak out. well if you know her
you would know what to do and how to make her smile

Well im not in the state of talking to anyone
Im out

going somewhere to clear my mind
i really need it right away before i do something stupid
im too stress out with studies